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From Early Childhood Death to
Spirit-guided Overcomer of Everything 

I Clawed Myself  Single-handedly out of
Decades of Extreme Emotional & Physiological Traumas

I looked, but there was no helper, I was appalled that there was no one to give support; so my own arm brought me victory, and as for my wrath, it supported me. ~ Isaiah 63:5

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Indeed, my own arm brought me victory, far beyond anyone's imagination!
My wife and I provided the land, the plants, and our labor, for this quarter-acre public park:
Blazing blooms in park that was donated and personally landscaped by Herman I Neuman and his wife.

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I wanted to find answers about how I could have survived so many impossibles. And then prosper in spite of great continuous resistance to my endeavors from other people . Therefore, I gratefully dedicate the only poem I have ever written, Hell-raised Child: Self-Liberated!, to those who are innocently caught up in self-destructive generations. May it give you hope, inspiration and courage to keep searching for the true scientific knowledge and spiritual guidance for helping yourself to be well:

Hell-Raised Child: Self-Liberated!

 Its parents committed the most deadly of all possible sins1 that ensured it to fail.
Popular presumptions affirmed that it would spend years in counseling and jail.
Its near-death experiences were enhanced by unknown, booming and fiery lights.
Who would protect him while living with scurrying mice and unstable dynamite?

 Did W. H. Auden include the fate of this child without mirth
in his poem, September 1, 1939, the year of this baby’s birth:
I and the public know what all school children learn,
those to whom evil is done do evil in return

 War, school failure, shame, floggings, homelessness, hunger, hard labor slavery2
earned this most innocent boy misunderstanding about his tenacious bravery.
He found healing in hundreds of books and nature while he quietly suffered.
Who was protecting him from brutal reality to keep him from feeling too battered?

 The shell of to whom so much evil was done cracked from distrust and pains;
pushing him to higher intuitive hyper-vigilance to propel diverse gains.
Empathy, discernment and spiritual connections were seeding his blessedness.
Would that give him strength to deal with the worst learned helplessness?

 Innate curiosity helped him to transition from shyness to becoming ever bolder,
while retaining firm discipline to re-gain the best of health while growing older.
So, why did dozens of just aging symptoms accumulate until he was ready to die,
while doctors were puzzling his serious illness and did not know the what or why?

 An unknown, angelic, voice phoned him to say: Chemicals are making you sick!
He quickly grasped the seriousness of the global distorted-science epidemics.
Did only the earth, sun, exercise and consuming Divine herbs and nutrition
restore him to the best of health; long postponing his undertaking with a mortician?

  His compassionate nature desires to share his experiences with a forgiving spirit.
Once with a man who became so nervous that he did not dare to hear it;
the secret about avoiding a global Human Collapse Disease-Disorder death.
Why did empathy cause anxiety to spout: You scare me!, and not under his breath?

 How much do apathy, denial and belief entrapments cause people to forever suffer?
Why do rigid mindsets reject much of what conquerors of man-made hell can offer?
What caused this child to thrive beyond nightmares, instead of going insane or die?
A world traveler, spiritual care volunteer, public speaker and what else became I?

...thought-provoking and hauntingly beautiful,...
~ anonymous

What a beautiful, poignant poem of death and resurrection of the soul. Thank you for sharing.
~ J. Gilmore

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Well-known psychotherapist Belleruth Naparstek has counseled many trauma survivors and describes several blessings that some trauma survivors receive from suffering. The only book published by an expert in psychiatry that I ever read was her, Invisible Heroes: Survivors of Trauma and How They Heal. She titled her concluding chapter, Surprise Blessings: Gifts in the Rubble. Those are:

Joy, compassion, heightened creativity, survivor power and spiritual connection…

Many survivors express gratitude for the renewed connection with the divine that their journey has brought them. They describe a more intimate relation with God. Often they talk about a new found ability to source nourishment and renewal from every corner of the universe, every part of the natural world. There is a profound and palpable peacefulness that comes from deep inside of them. This inner light, capacity for joy, peaceful centeredness, acceptance of their own strength, and intuitive understanding of others acts subliminally to attract others to them. These are the heroes who lead the way with equal measures of gentleness and personal power. And they remind the one who are still struggling that they can reclaim their lives too.

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Handsomely equipped to fail, I went out into the world.
~ John Fowles, The Magus.

To be thrown upon one's own resources, is to be cast into the very lap of fortune; for our faculties then undergo a development and display an energy of which they were previously unsusceptible.
~ Benjamin Franklin, US author, diplomat, inventor, physicist, politician, & printer (1706 - 1790)

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My parents and the justice system abandoned me; throwing me upon my own resources. Would I become a failure or be cast into the lap of good fortune?Herman I Neuman in field of Camas flowers near Idaho's Sawtooth Mountains.

Do you sometimes feel that you "cannot take it anymore?" If so, let me demonstrate to you that you do not have to feel or think that way. You can be healthier and emotionally much stronger than you might think. But it requires patience, discipline, curiosity and the right attitude. When you enjoy life, it is also easier to achieve your goals.

How do I know? From years of extremely brutal personal suffering and subsequent triumphs over unbelievable odds. I had to crawl out of my early-life man-made hell, single-handedly, without one mentor. Because I did not buckle under, I learned many unusual lessons from a terrorized childhood and deepest poverty. Thereafter, I worked my way through college to become an independent world traveler.

By the time I was only twenty years old, I had to endure the following episodes with unending, lonely patience, without anyone to mentor or console me:

Diphtheria - Whooping cough - War - Years of near-starvation - Years of homelessness - Years of judicial injustice and bare-buttocks floggings - Years of chronic ear infection - School failure - Years of extreme culture shock, social isolation, hard labor and slavery* - and much more.

As you can imagine, I freaked out. Totally. I went berserk and with my wife created a community park filled with trees and flowers (photo above).

I became a great paradox. Instead of suffering from post-traumatic stress disorder (PTSD) I am now enjoying Post-Traumatic Blessings Order (PTBO). I did not became bitter or revengeful but received many blessings from my unbelievably impossible long-term traumas. I did not become what is commonly accepted as the most likely result of growing up in an exploded family.

I became the exact opposite. Benjamin Franklin's wisdom proved to be very true for me and that made me " an unusual man."

For example, after my new wife and I graduated from college together, we saved enough to travel around the world for six months. My satirical, blunt-truth memoir, Heroes from the Attic: A Gripping True Story of Triumph, reads like bizarre fiction and includes a chapter about our low-budget travel adventures. We have now been married almost fifty years.

Amazingly, a hard life is often quite preventable, because such is mostly man-made and often even self-inflicted. Episodes in your life that seem to be impossible to overcome can be dealt with through self-discipline, patient endurance and research.

After my almost terminal ear infection as a toddler, people thought that I had become an idiot, and I also had to learn to walk again. It also caused proud flesh, that is wild meat, to grow in my head during more than a dozen years thereafter. An Internet search for "proud flesh" indicates that I may be the only human being during recent Western history that has ever done so over a such a long period of time.

And as if all of those problems were not enough, one of my slave masters made me live in a shack, shown below, in which he had stored dynamite. Unbeknownst to anyone, this explosive became highly unstable and dangerous. A bomb disposal expert stated that I should have exploded.

My second slave master forced me to live in this isolated shack.

In spite of my horrendous early life, I still do not go into denial about large problems. On the contrary. I almost automatically seek them out, wherever I may find them, in order to be able to avoid or help improve them.

As a child I virtually "turned the other cheek" thousands of times, so to speak. And literally all four of them too many times. However, do not be saddened by my beginnings because in spite of, or because of, my long sufferings, I received many unusual blessings as mentioned above.

People frequently ask me questions like, "How were you able to deal with your stresses? How did you manage to survive?" After having thought about this for a long time, I had to conclude that it could only have been through divine intervention. It could not have been any other way. The odds of my survival, or remaining sane, had been so low that I now challenge anyone to demonstrate how it could have been otherwise. My conclusion seems to be affirmed by many people who have learned his story: "The human potential seems to be infinite!" and "God's plan for you is to inspire."

I earned a five-year engineering degree from Washington State University. I was a spiritual care volunteer at regional medical center and a psychiatric and addiction services  facility. I received nominations for the Jefferson Award for Public Service. I am a former member of The American Academy of Experts in Traumatic Stress, a past chapter president of Toastmasters International, a former member of a chamber of commerce, a planning and zoning commission and a long-time board member of a water users association. I was a founder and president of a corporation and a homeowners association.

Nothing in the world can take the place of persistence. Talent will not; nothing is more common than unsuccessful men with talent. Genius will not; unrewarded genius is almost a proverb. Education will not; the world is full of educated derelicts. Persistence and determination are omnipotent. The slogan press on has solved and always will solve the problems of the human race. No person was ever honored for what he received. Honor has been the reward for what he gave.
Calvin Coolidge

Quotes of wisdom that highlight the brutal reality and blessings reflected in my poem at the top of this page:

The most deadly of all possible sins is the mutilation of a child’s spirit.
~ Psychoanalyst Erik Erikson

When I feel the Heat, I see the Light.
~ US Senator Everett Dirksen
I have but one lamp ..., and that is the lamp of Experience.
~ Patrick Henry...
To acquire Wisdom one must Observe.

~ Marilyn vos Savant
The only source of Knowledge is Experience.
~ Albert Einstein
Your Pain is the breaking of the Shell that encloses your Understanding.
~ Khalil Gibran
You can avoid Reality, but you cannot avoid the consequences of avoiding Reality.
~ Ayn Rand...
The nearest each of us can come to God is by loving the truth.
~ R. Buckminster Fuller

 1 ...the most deadly of all possible sins is the mutilation of a child’s spirit; for such mutilation undercuts the life principle of trust, without which every human act, may it feel ever so good and seem ever so right is prone to perversion by destructive forms of conscientiousness.
Eric Erickson

2 One of the two of my masters forced me to work in mud and manure and would not allow me to bathe or shower under the threat of physical punishment. My brother testified before a District Court that our relatives "had enslaved us."