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 HERMAN I NEUMAN

Spirit-guided Overcomer of Everything

I Clawed Myself Single-handedly out of
Decades of Extreme Emotional & Physical Traumas

I looked, but there was no helper, I was appalled that there was no one to give support; so my own arm brought me victory, and as for my wrath, it supported me. ~ Isaiah 63:5

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Indeed, my own arm and spiritual guidance brought me victory! Far beyond anyone's imagination! Because such was, is, and will be forever real for me, it can also be for you.

Blazing blooms in park that was donated and personally landscaped by Herman I Neuman and his wife.

After my wife and I bailed out of the rats' race, we I donated the land, the plants, and our labor, for this quarter-acre public park (partial view).

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I survived almost weekly, monthly and yearly seemingly impossible emotional and physical traumas for decades. However, eventually I prospered in spite of continuous resistance and verbal abuse from other people. As strange as it may seem, because I now feel very blessed, I am very grateful for what good, and bad, people have taught me. Therefore, I dedicate the only poem that I have ever written to those who are innocently caught up in self-destructive generations (below). May my true-life story give them inspiration, discipline and courage to keep striving towards true knowledge and spiritual guidance for achieving health and happiness, as it has done for uncountable others.

Baby Boy Resurrected!

 Its parents committed the most deadly of all possible sins1 that ensured it to fail.
Popular presumptions affirmed that it would spend years in counseling and jail.
Did deathly experiences energize it to overcome years of exploitation, injustice, fiery fights,
and protect him while sleeping with scurrying mice and highly unstable dynamite?

 Did W. H. Auden include the fate of this child without mirth
in his poem, September 1, 1939, the year of this baby’s birth:
I and the public know what all school children learn,
those to whom evil is done do evil in return
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 War, school failure, shame, floggings, homelessness, hunger, hard labor slavery2
earned this most innocent boy misunderstanding about his tenacious bravery.
He found healing in hundreds of books and nature while he quietly suffered.
Who was protecting him from brutal reality to keep him from feeling too battered?

 The shell of to whom so much evil was done cracked from distrust and pains;
pushing him to higher intuitive hyper-vigilance to propel miraculous gains.
Empathy, discernment and spiritual connections were seeding his blessedness.
Would that give him strength to deal with the worst learned helplessness?

 Innate curiosity helped him to transition from shyness to becoming ever bolder,
while retaining firm discipline to re-gain the best of health while growing older.
So, why did dozens of just aging symptoms accumulate until he was ready to die,
while doctors were puzzling his serious illness and did not know the what or why?

 An unknown, angelic, voice phoned him to say: Chemicals are making you sick!
He quickly grasped the seriousness of the global distorted-science epidemics.
Did spiritual connections with the earth guide him to take in divinely-created nutrition,
restoring him to the best of health; long postponing his undertaking with a mortician?

  His compassionate nature desires to share his experiences with a forgiving spirit.
Once with a man who became so nervous that he did not dare to hear it;
the secret about avoiding a global Human Collapse Disease-Disorder death.
Why did sharing such experiences evoke: You scare me!, and not under his breath?

 How much do apathy, denial and belief entrapments cause people to forever suffer?
Why do rigid mindsets reject much of what conquerors of man-made hell can offer?
What caused this child to thrive beyond nightmares, instead of going insane or die?
A world traveler, spiritual care volunteer, public speaker and what else became I?

What a beautiful, poignant poem of death and resurrection of the soul. Thank you for sharing. ~ J. Gilmore

Your "Baby Boy Resurrected" poem really touched me.... I feel I have so much to learn from you.~ Terry B.

...thought-provoking and hauntingly beautiful,... ~ anonymous

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I never had the desire to read books about psychiatry or psychology. But after many of my readers and audiences could not believe that was still sane and alive I began to wonder about that myself. My search for an appropriate book essentially began and ended quickly by finding one book about that subject: Invisible Heroes: Survivors of Trauma and How They Heal. It was written by psychotherapist Belleruth Naparstek who has been counseling and healing many trauma survivors. In her concluding chapter, Surprise Blessings: Gifts in the Rubble, she describes several major blessings that some trauma survivors receive from suffering. Those are:

Joy, compassion, heightened creativity, survivor power and spiritual connection…

Many survivors express gratitude for the renewed connection with the divine that their journey has brought them. They describe a more intimate relation with God. Often they talk about a new found ability to source nourishment and renewal from every corner of the universe, every part of the natural world. There is a profound and palpable peacefulness that comes from deep inside of them. This inner light, capacity for joy, peaceful centeredness, acceptance of their own strength, and intuitive understanding of others acts subliminally to attract others to them. These are the heroes who lead the way with equal measures of gentleness and personal power. And they remind the one who are still struggling that they can reclaim their lives too.

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Handsomely equipped to fail, I went out into the world.
~ John Fowles, The Magus.

To be thrown upon one's own resources, is to be cast into the very lap of fortune; for our faculties then undergo a development and display an energy of which they were previously unsusceptible.
~ Benjamin Franklin, US author, diplomat, inventor, physicist, politician, & printer (1706 - 1790)

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My parents and the justice system abandoned my little brother and me. Completely. They threw us upon our own resources. Would we become failures or be cast into the very lap of good fortune?Herman I Neuman in field of Camas flowers near Idaho's Sawtooth Mountains. This web site is an overview of my blunt and brutally true life story. It may shock, awe and teach you. Therefore I welcome your questions and comments.

Do you sometimes feel that you "cannot take it anymore?" If so, let me demonstrate that you do not have to feel or think that way. You can be healthier and emotionally much stronger than you might think. But it requires patience, discipline, curiosity and the right attitude. When you enjoy life, it is easier to think of and achieve new goals.

How do I know? From death as a baby. Plus additional near-death experiences. Plus, on an earthly level, from years of extremely brutal personal suffering and subsequent triumphs over unbelievable odds. I had to crawl out of my early-life man-made hell, single-handedly, without one mentor. Because I did not buckle under, I learned many unusual lessons from a terrorized childhood and deepest poverty. Thereafter, I worked my way through college to become an independent world traveler.

By the time I was only twenty years old, I had to endure the following episodes with unending, lonely patience, without anyone to mentor or console me:

Diphtheria - Whooping cough - War - Years of near-starvation - Years of homelessness - Years of judicial injustice and bare-buttocks floggings - Years of chronic ear infection - School failure - Years of extreme culture shock, social isolation, hard labor and slavery* - and much more.

As you can imagine, I freaked out! Totally! Even decades I was still going berserk! My wife of several decades and I created a community park filled lots of trees, flowers and my dear buzzing, life-long friends, honeybees. (photo above)

As a child I virtually "turned the other cheek" thousands of times, so to speak. And literally all four of them too many times. However, do not be saddened by my beginnings because in spite of, or because of, my long sufferings, I received many unusual spiritual blessings mentioned above.

I became a great paradox. Instead of suffering from post-traumatic stress disorder (PTSD) I am now enjoying Post-Traumatic Blessings Order (PTBO). I did not became bitter or revengeful but received many blessings from my unbelievably impossible long-term traumas. I did not become what is commonly accepted as the most likely result of growing up in an exploded family.

I became the exact opposite. Benjamin Franklin's wisdom proved to be very true for me and that made me " an unusual man."

For example, after my new wife and I graduated from college together, we saved enough to travel around the world for six months. My satirical, blunt-truth memoir, Heroes from the Attic: A Gripping True Story of Triumph, reads like bizarre fiction and includes a chapter about our low-budget travel adventures. We have now been married more than fifty years.

Amazingly, a hard life is often quite preventable, because such is mostly man-made and often self-inflicted. Episodes in your life that seem to be impossible to overcome can be dealt with through a positive mind-set, self-love, self-discipline, reading and patient endurance.

After my near-terminal ear infection as a toddler, people thought that I had become an idiot. I also had to learn to walk again. That ear infection was so neglected that it also caused proud flesh, wild meat, to grow in my head. For more than a dozen years thereafter. An Internet search for "proud flesh" indicates that I may be the only human being during recent Western history that has ever done so, especially over a such a long period of time.

And as if all of those problems from birth though my teenage years had not been enough, one of my slave masters made me live in an inhabitable shack. Shown below, in which he had stored dynamite. Unbeknownst to anyone, this explosive became highly unstable and dangerous. Years later a bomb disposal expert explained to me that I should have exploded.

My second slave master forced me to live in this isolated shack.

In spite of my horrendous early life, I still do not go into denial about large problems. On the contrary. I obsessively seek them out. Doing so, has had great benefits for me because I has helped me to work towards the best of health and happiness today during my eightieth year of life.

People frequently ask me questions like, "How were you able to deal with your stresses? How did you manage to survive?" After having thought about this for a long time during my later years, I had to conclude that it could only have been through divine intervention. It could not have been any other way. The odds of my survival, or remaining sane, had been so low that I now challenge anyone to demonstrate how it could have been otherwise. My conclusion seems to be affirmed by many people who have learned his story: "The human potential seems to be infinite!" and "God's plan for you is to inspire."

I earned a five-year engineering degree from Washington State University. I was a spiritual care volunteer at regional medical center and a psychiatric-behavioral-addiction treatment center. I received nominations for the Jefferson Award for Public Service. I am a former member of The American Academy of Experts in Traumatic Stress, a past chapter president of Toastmasters International, a former member of a chamber of commerce, a planning and zoning commission and a long-time board member of a water users association. I was a co-founder and president of a corporation and a homeowners association.

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Quotes of wisdom that highlight the brutal reality and blessings reflected in my poem above:

Nothing in the world can take the place of persistence. Talent will not; nothing is more common than unsuccessful men with talent. Genius will not; unrewarded genius is almost a proverb. Education will not; the world is full of educated derelicts.

Persistence and determination are omnipotent. The slogan press on has solved and always will solve the problems of the human race. No person was ever honored for what he received. Honor has been the reward for what he gave.
~
Calvin Coolidge

The most deadly of all possible sins is the mutilation of a child’s spirit.
~ Psychoanalyst Erik Erikson

When I feel the Heat, I see the Light.
~ US Senator Everett Dirksen
I have but one lamp ..., and that is the lamp of Experience.
~ Patrick Henry...
To acquire Wisdom one must Observe.

~ Marilyn vos Savant
The only source of Knowledge is Experience.
~ Albert Einstein
Your Pain is the breaking of the Shell that encloses your Understanding.
~ Khalil Gibran
You can avoid Reality, but you cannot avoid the consequences of avoiding Reality.
~ Ayn Rand...
The nearest each of us can come to God is by loving the truth.
~ R. Buckminster Fuller

 1 ...the most deadly of all possible sins is the mutilation of a child’s spirit; for such mutilation undercuts the life principle of trust, without which every human act, may it feel ever so good and seem ever so right is prone to perversion by destructive forms of conscientiousness.
~
Eric Erickson

2 One of the two of my masters forced me to work in mud and manure and would not allow me to bathe or shower under the threat of physical punishment. My brother testified before a District Court that our relatives "had enslaved us."